There was a girl that got booted off tonight... she was wearing a purple dress and when they give their little sob story goodbye... she looked like she was keeping it together... and I kinda felt bad for her. To paraphrase "I've tried regular dating, I've tried getting set up by friends... I've tried online dating and none of it worked... this was my last ditch effort... maybe I'm just meant to be alone"... Ya I know friggen sad eh. She didn't bawl and say she was in love with the Take Two Bachelor... sigh... I sympathise with her and in no way am I saying thats me yet... but sometimes it can feel like that.
For now I think its safe to say its mostly just friends and people who know me reading this bloody blog... and come on! Does that not sound like my life a little? When do I come home from a date and say "wow I think I just met the one?" Yes never. Today... at work... I had an insightful chat with my goof friend... pardon me... good friend and confidant... Rockstar. Yup... he will be referred to as Rockstar in this blog. Anyways... we were talking about dating and me and I said that I haven't had that feeling in a while...
Come on you know that feeling... sometimes its really strong and it has you thinking "soul mates" that is until your curled up in the fetal position on the floor contemplating pouring expired milk all over the back of his truck interior because you know he doesn't lock it..... anyways that feelin... even if its just a crush! The feeling that has you checking your phone 3 times a minute to make sure you didn't miss a text... or how your heart jumps in your chest when they call and you hear their voice... of the huge smile you can't wipe off when they're around... or even when you think about them... ya well its been a while since I've had that feeling. Well over a year! I had a crush on a guy from my hometown recently but he needs to check his ego at the door... Once upon a time... I was sitting on a bed, not far from where I am now and I thought "wow I am going to marry this guy... " clearly I was wrong... but as I told "Rockstar" (and trust me that's cuz he drinks them lol) today... I'm worried I won't have that feeling again.
Something to contemplate as I embark on this world of online dating... Do I hate for the sparks to fly on date one or give it a few dates... another debate I had with Rockstar who says that feeling will happen again and not to waste my time going on other dates if I'm not sure...
Any girls that are reading this that have a super nice boyfriend... fiancee ahem or hubby... give them an extra bug hug and kiss today and hey maybe some hardcore loving too and remember that butterflies, can't get enough feeling you had when you first met... and keep it going... for those of us that haven't found it yet.
L
P-S Maybe I should just stop watchin the Bachelor. Looking at gyms tomorrow... shoot me.
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